retarded

im super retarded, least i feel this way. i cant stand myself. wot e fcuk am i doing nowadays?
firstly let me address some issues. i cant get this off my chest at all. and i need to. seriously need to.

cindy
i dont dislike u in any form. and i dont mind u talking to jj. i dunno how to come across talking to u. but i know i irritated you. i just found out tho. haha. hmm, im glad u tried to help. but i know im stubborn. thanks for e help anyway. (: i dunno why we cant seem to talk. perhaps, ive heard.

vic
feel exceptionally distant from you. like i super dont know you. i dunno if its cos ur grades dont meet ur mark or wot. but i dunno. i have this weird and strange feeling something is going on. i hate this shit.

james lim
surprised i confided in him abt my problems today. shocking but he was a good listener. mayb i prefer someone quiet to listen to me nag. at e end of the day, he was like - its e individual's decision. ya. i took note of that. but im still lost. haha. thr - i was talking to our future politian. lol*

my prelim marks
shitty. terrible. bad. i dont make my own cut. atrocious e WORD!
english- unsure
chinese - b4
maths- unknown
history- 36/50 ( im couting on my ss marks!!)
social studies.. - :
comb' sci - 61 (b4) great improvement. more to come
biology - c6 ( a big friggin drop- fcuk)
accounts - a2 - i want an A1. super many careless mistake

someone told me this today.
u must set ur goal very clear on whr u wanna go. only give one/two options for urself. other than that, nothing else will do for u. work very hard at everything and make prelim ur driving force.

i dont think im ready to coach people for akltg. i feel lost myself. how to lead like an eagle when u feel like a ship. i'd lead soon. PROMOTE. haha. (:

with no intention to hit it on anyone
little smiles. little time. little me. BIG WORLD with little people (xiao ren)